to no one
one on one
carer gone
to the toilet
gentle movements
to the air
the nod of a head
the wave of a hand
flicks of the hair
our window
a rest
hand printing
the glass
mouthing confessions
as onlookers pass
Thursday, December 29, 2011
collingwood friday morning
sleepy haunty
weirdcold streets
rakish jaunty
completely empty
still, no flaunty
cafes, no shops
no people waiting
at stops
no chatter
no one wondering
what's the matter
but me
stepping solely
through the streets
weirdcold streets
rakish jaunty
completely empty
still, no flaunty
cafes, no shops
no people waiting
at stops
no chatter
no one wondering
what's the matter
but me
stepping solely
through the streets
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
The Moral of the Myths / The Lesson of the Legends
Love the one who loves you
or you'll scorn a wrathful
god
and be changed into a
serpent, or a fountain, something
odd
or awful, mortifying,
horrifying, so much worse a
state
than loving, with a false love,
the one you really
hate
or you'll scorn a wrathful
god
and be changed into a
serpent, or a fountain, something
odd
or awful, mortifying,
horrifying, so much worse a
state
than loving, with a false love,
the one you really
hate
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Kim Makes Cupcakes
with a care I'd never fathom
having
strangely moving
the sight of this slender
man
tending a tray with such
patience
faithful
focussed
Kim makes the cakes
rise
two dozen small suns
on a morning
having
strangely moving
the sight of this slender
man
tending a tray with such
patience
faithful
focussed
Kim makes the cakes
rise
two dozen small suns
on a morning
Sun Won
the space behind your ear
is warmer than my worries
matter
all I need to do
is hold my mouth
to your neck and
live in
the place of your skin
is warmer than my worries
matter
all I need to do
is hold my mouth
to your neck and
live in
the place of your skin
River Running Under the Train
If I got into that water I'd get sick
but the drift of the waves would be worth it
but the drift of the waves would be worth it
The People Born Around Your Birthday
bear a curious resemblance to
your core
perhaps all caps and bells of
you? manifests of
your lore?
shades of self
rages and smiles
the sides met with
approvals/denials
all recognisable
all odd
all fingers pointing to an
inner god
your core
perhaps all caps and bells of
you? manifests of
your lore?
shades of self
rages and smiles
the sides met with
approvals/denials
all recognisable
all odd
all fingers pointing to an
inner god
Monday, November 21, 2011
After the Grad Show
It seems we're gleaming into a great tragedy!
(Him and her and you and me.)
Bright- yes!
Laughing - yes!
(But always with this fine underlining of a bad end.)
My sad friends smile!
Lots of clueless losers win!
And then the clued-in winners grin in bearing loss!
This is the cost!
(Though I don't know what we're buying.)
(Him and her and you and me.)
Bright- yes!
Laughing - yes!
(But always with this fine underlining of a bad end.)
My sad friends smile!
Lots of clueless losers win!
And then the clued-in winners grin in bearing loss!
This is the cost!
(Though I don't know what we're buying.)
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Boy on the Train
Wide eyes fall like
shavings of
star
onto the
lap
connected to the
half-formed
folds
of shoulder
by long
listless
arms.
It is the
benign
bewilderment
in that otherwise
blockish
jockish
face
that is so charming
the embers
of a disarming man
burning.
shavings of
star
onto the
lap
connected to the
half-formed
folds
of shoulder
by long
listless
arms.
It is the
benign
bewilderment
in that otherwise
blockish
jockish
face
that is so charming
the embers
of a disarming man
burning.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Plucked
I plucked a hair from the
mole near your
mouth
beneath the lounge room lamp
You sat, good, like a
child
as I straddled with tweezers
tugging the wires with relish
You sat, still, like a
hound
snout raised to the domestic moon
my success met with a satisfied yelp
Your pitted mole
holed
as a blueberry.
mole near your
mouth
beneath the lounge room lamp
You sat, good, like a
child
as I straddled with tweezers
tugging the wires with relish
You sat, still, like a
hound
snout raised to the domestic moon
my success met with a satisfied yelp
Your pitted mole
holed
as a blueberry.
There's a Strange Colour
there's a strange colour over my
city this evening
the leaves sit like plates
on its grey
breathless and still and yet
audibly heaving
a pause in the shift
from the day
there's an odd bit of God in the
air up here
in line with our
secondmost floor
as though we can know when the
end is near
and never fear death
anymore
city this evening
the leaves sit like plates
on its grey
breathless and still and yet
audibly heaving
a pause in the shift
from the day
there's an odd bit of God in the
air up here
in line with our
secondmost floor
as though we can know when the
end is near
and never fear death
anymore
Monday, October 31, 2011
The Line of the Man
the line of the man - half-
formed in this light - is
set like the mist around
stars - His
hair is an air of some heavenly
where - His
heart is a dark path to
Mars - His
mouth is the north and the south of
dimension - His
throat is the total of
time - His
shape and his mass are the fact of
maths - but
his
mystery
is
of
the
sublime
formed in this light - is
set like the mist around
stars - His
hair is an air of some heavenly
where - His
heart is a dark path to
Mars - His
mouth is the north and the south of
dimension - His
throat is the total of
time - His
shape and his mass are the fact of
maths - but
his
mystery
is
of
the
sublime
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Customer
As I put the lay-by through
she tells me
she saw the gown in a drug-induced vision
after an operation
and knew
it had to be
hers.
she tells me
she saw the gown in a drug-induced vision
after an operation
and knew
it had to be
hers.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
My Bowl of Roses Speaks to the City
I went into my room and found
my bowl of roses speaking to
the city
craning over the window sill
addressing the buildings
below
And their friends the trees
put fingers to lips
to show
the spires how
to hear
my bowl of roses speaking to
the city
craning over the window sill
addressing the buildings
below
And their friends the trees
put fingers to lips
to show
the spires how
to hear
Golden God
my golden god
stretches long
feline lines
that rest upon
a rounded mouth
a raven head
an amber eye
a tousled bed
(and he rises
rolling the morning
on his tongue
like a lion
lifting the sun
to the sky
my golden god
heavy
with the love
in his eye)
stretches long
feline lines
that rest upon
a rounded mouth
a raven head
an amber eye
a tousled bed
(and he rises
rolling the morning
on his tongue
like a lion
lifting the sun
to the sky
my golden god
heavy
with the love
in his eye)
Sunburn
How I love a little sunburn!
To roast my ghostly skin!
To remind the soul inside it
of the mortal meat it's in!
To roast my ghostly skin!
To remind the soul inside it
of the mortal meat it's in!
Monday, October 17, 2011
The City was the Sea
The City was the Sea
this morning
sharp air sprayed with salt
blasts from elsewhere
everywhere
all hair flung -
And huddled like birds
the herds of commuters
were wordless, just
set
on getting where they needed to get
without getting
wet
this morning
sharp air sprayed with salt
blasts from elsewhere
everywhere
all hair flung -
And huddled like birds
the herds of commuters
were wordless, just
set
on getting where they needed to get
without getting
wet
While the Child
While the child dances in ecstatic
rapture
moving her fine, feline, sublime human
instrument with
grave strokes
pulsing, pausing
holding her four-year-old
face in an ancient
shape
moving in time with the
history of her
species
we talk about the musty smell in the new bathroom.
rapture
moving her fine, feline, sublime human
instrument with
grave strokes
pulsing, pausing
holding her four-year-old
face in an ancient
shape
moving in time with the
history of her
species
we talk about the musty smell in the new bathroom.
Friday, October 14, 2011
The Authority of Night
presses a firm hand
to your head
Quiet, now.
commanding as a queen
bidding you give in
to serene service
follow the orders
of her dark
her total shifts
of shade
gently bow
understanding what she means
when the mistress that is
Night
tells you how
to give in
to your head
Quiet, now.
commanding as a queen
bidding you give in
to serene service
follow the orders
of her dark
her total shifts
of shade
gently bow
understanding what she means
when the mistress that is
Night
tells you how
to give in
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Bakery Heiress / Bread Orphan
The bakery heiress
slips like a shadow
between the window
panes
head-to-toe
designer dress
a picture of Parisien finesse
but inside - a tale of woe -
the pains
of an orphan whose
very fortunes rose
and fell with the doomed course
of her parents'
plane
and so,
she and her sister, now
multi-millionairesses
are two
mournful, bread
dauphins.
slips like a shadow
between the window
panes
head-to-toe
designer dress
a picture of Parisien finesse
but inside - a tale of woe -
the pains
of an orphan whose
very fortunes rose
and fell with the doomed course
of her parents'
plane
and so,
she and her sister, now
multi-millionairesses
are two
mournful, bread
dauphins.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Mad Man
Wednesday, 14th September. 11:44pm
There is a mad man ranting up and down my street, feet
shuffling, muffled curses coming out in shrieks. What
is this ghastly, unspeakable grief? As others pass by, in
surprise, laughter, terrified meekness, what is this freak
of fairness? This anomaly of humanity? What
separates this desperately mad man from me? How
do his terrible, violent cries mean less than a baby's? He
shares a baby's fear, its bewilderment of here. What
makes this man a mockery? What stops us revering the
shock of his state? The dread of his chant? What
matters if this man must live within this rant?
There is a mad man ranting up and down my street, feet
shuffling, muffled curses coming out in shrieks. What
is this ghastly, unspeakable grief? As others pass by, in
surprise, laughter, terrified meekness, what is this freak
of fairness? This anomaly of humanity? What
separates this desperately mad man from me? How
do his terrible, violent cries mean less than a baby's? He
shares a baby's fear, its bewilderment of here. What
makes this man a mockery? What stops us revering the
shock of his state? The dread of his chant? What
matters if this man must live within this rant?
Sunday, September 11, 2011
I Draw a Chord
I draw a chord from my
mind -
I form it
into
a lasso -
I wind it high
into the
sky -
and throw it
around you -
around you -
You
who
I need to be
tied
to.
mind -
I form it
into
a lasso -
I wind it high
into the
sky -
and throw it
around you -
around you -
You
who
I need to be
tied
to.
My Nails
my nails move like little
black beetles over the
page
capped, helmutted
creatures with
murderous wills
dark intents
to make a breakfast
of the page's
words
to make the page
make sense
black beetles over the
page
capped, helmutted
creatures with
murderous wills
dark intents
to make a breakfast
of the page's
words
to make the page
make sense
I Wake
I wake semi-naked
slightly sweaty
drink-less dry
wonder where my water
went
wonder why
the window's closed?
I know
I opened it
at dawn
I think
and where is my water?
I need a drink
slightly sweaty
drink-less dry
wonder where my water
went
wonder why
the window's closed?
I know
I opened it
at dawn
I think
and where is my water?
I need a drink
Nearly-Nervous-Breakdowny Ladies
These
steeled
rich
nearly-nervous-breakdowny
ladies
having
shoes
repaired
doing
errands
soaked
in
perfume
and
anxiety
all
appearance
all
propriety
until
you
say
some
magic
word
and
then
they
fall
apart.
steeled
rich
nearly-nervous-breakdowny
ladies
having
shoes
repaired
doing
errands
soaked
in
perfume
and
anxiety
all
appearance
all
propriety
until
you
say
some
magic
word
and
then
they
fall
apart.
I'm Having a Battle with My Face
I'm having a battle with my face,
because it will not stay in place.
The skin beneath my eyes bags.
The flesh along my jaw sags.
Maybe I should shave my head.
And love my nice smooth scalp instead.
because it will not stay in place.
The skin beneath my eyes bags.
The flesh along my jaw sags.
Maybe I should shave my head.
And love my nice smooth scalp instead.
Sober Lunch in the City Before Work
But then today the city seemed obscured by a veneer of meanness.
I couldn't tell if it was my over-
sensitivity, or her over-
cast skies, or an over-
all tiredness on people's faces.
But my place in Melbourne's heart seemed
smaller.
Colder.
Like she was.
Distracted.
By a new love.
Another girl.
Maybe.
Or a hovering sense of
futility.
Like she was giving up on me.
Like she was over what we
have.
Or had.
Like it was different
from before.
Or maybe it was me.
Who didn't.
Love her.
Anymore.
I couldn't tell if it was my over-
sensitivity, or her over-
cast skies, or an over-
all tiredness on people's faces.
But my place in Melbourne's heart seemed
smaller.
Colder.
Like she was.
Distracted.
By a new love.
Another girl.
Maybe.
Or a hovering sense of
futility.
Like she was giving up on me.
Like she was over what we
have.
Or had.
Like it was different
from before.
Or maybe it was me.
Who didn't.
Love her.
Anymore.
1.30pm
"You look delicate today," she said,
and I thanked her before realising it was
a concern and not a compliment.
and I thanked her before realising it was
a concern and not a compliment.
Semi-Drunken Walk Home from the Tote
- God! - on that holy
night I had the cold
ecstatic soul of an
old tree - the whole
brilliant dirty city
breathed through me
like a pipe - like a
lung - like the sweeping
swoop of scent reaming
from the sea when its
horizon has been
strung with boats
- God! - the air
was rapture rolling
through my throat - I
thought - Alive! Oh God!
I am alive! - and with
no pen I wrote the lines
in eyeliner on my beating
hand - waving it out
to dry as I walked
the holy land -
night I had the cold
ecstatic soul of an
old tree - the whole
brilliant dirty city
breathed through me
like a pipe - like a
lung - like the sweeping
swoop of scent reaming
from the sea when its
horizon has been
strung with boats
- God! - the air
was rapture rolling
through my throat - I
thought - Alive! Oh God!
I am alive! - and with
no pen I wrote the lines
in eyeliner on my beating
hand - waving it out
to dry as I walked
the holy land -
Friday, August 26, 2011
Stir-Fries
I make shit stir-fries
no matter how hard I try
Who do I think I'm kidding
when I chop things in the kitchen?
I am not
a real adult
at all.
(I stop the conversation mid-sentence to taste the stir-fry.
"Oh shit," I want to cry. "I've put too much sauce."
"I could have told you that from the first drizzle," he says gently.)
no matter how hard I try
Who do I think I'm kidding
when I chop things in the kitchen?
I am not
a real adult
at all.
(I stop the conversation mid-sentence to taste the stir-fry.
"Oh shit," I want to cry. "I've put too much sauce."
"I could have told you that from the first drizzle," he says gently.)
Shadow Sister
I had a shadow sister
stitched to my
side
We were eachother - we
were husband, bride, brother, mother
and any, every
other
(sounding-board, mirror, cushion
for a fall)
Then she pulled the stitches out
and replaced them with a
wall
stitched to my
side
We were eachother - we
were husband, bride, brother, mother
and any, every
other
(sounding-board, mirror, cushion
for a fall)
Then she pulled the stitches out
and replaced them with a
wall
Monday, August 22, 2011
Letter from Korea
My boy my boy
I await your coming like a
snowfall
a purifying shower
to cover the tracks
we've made
And all the while
you've stayed with
me
All the while of your absence
you've stayed
I await your coming like a
snowfall
a purifying shower
to cover the tracks
we've made
And all the while
you've stayed with
me
All the while of your absence
you've stayed
Where Did We Sit?
Where did we sit? You
and I, on the edge of it
all? Did we stay? Or stop? Or did we
fall off and into a void? A plot? Or the
sweet, stinging cot of another life? Were you my
husband? Was I your wife? Or your lover, at least? Did your
sun set west while mine rose east? Were we
chosen for here? Or rather, for there? Did we
ever sit together? And if so, where?
and I, on the edge of it
all? Did we stay? Or stop? Or did we
fall off and into a void? A plot? Or the
sweet, stinging cot of another life? Were you my
husband? Was I your wife? Or your lover, at least? Did your
sun set west while mine rose east? Were we
chosen for here? Or rather, for there? Did we
ever sit together? And if so, where?
Dark Mother Virginia
Dark mother
called the others
for a little while
A few decades to
raise her voice
was all she needed
to be well heeded
before succumbing
to the humming
of her choice.
called the others
for a little while
A few decades to
raise her voice
was all she needed
to be well heeded
before succumbing
to the humming
of her choice.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Wax-Off (I Gots the Post-Wax Blues)
On being born, I was awarded
a bed of fresh flesh, designed
to be worn from my head to
the meshy webbing of my toes, designed
to be naked sometimes (the shape
providing an allowance for clothes, but ultimately designed
to be hairy so there would be no real need for those).
Adorned, so, I grew, proceeding
to grow from squishy babe to semi-calloused youth to
crepey crow, and in the interim, I weeded
every second helpful hair from where it was needed (here,
there and underwear) so others would be misleaded into thinking
my most sacred temple (hirsute, lined
and dimpled), my most precious place (legs, arms,
inner thighs, chest, face) my most holy house
was no different to the vessel of a baby
mouse.
a bed of fresh flesh, designed
to be worn from my head to
the meshy webbing of my toes, designed
to be naked sometimes (the shape
providing an allowance for clothes, but ultimately designed
to be hairy so there would be no real need for those).
Adorned, so, I grew, proceeding
to grow from squishy babe to semi-calloused youth to
crepey crow, and in the interim, I weeded
every second helpful hair from where it was needed (here,
there and underwear) so others would be misleaded into thinking
my most sacred temple (hirsute, lined
and dimpled), my most precious place (legs, arms,
inner thighs, chest, face) my most holy house
was no different to the vessel of a baby
mouse.
Monday, August 1, 2011
It's Almost Night
and yet the buildings are still turning their faces
towards some light
Necks stretched
On tiptoes
Arching over each others' heads
to catch some final blaze
And so the buildings stare, their
eyes glazed
Reverie rippling through their
flickering spines
Door-mouths agape in structural sighs
('What is this mist of energy?')
The Electric
confounded
by the
Heavenly
towards some light
Necks stretched
On tiptoes
Arching over each others' heads
to catch some final blaze
And so the buildings stare, their
eyes glazed
Reverie rippling through their
flickering spines
Door-mouths agape in structural sighs
('What is this mist of energy?')
The Electric
confounded
by the
Heavenly
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Prabhujee
this morning I watch the moon in
reverse
I watch the moon in
rewind
a star cast over our heads and houses
all calls for heat and
light
(and voices draw the sun)
(and voices draw the sun)
(and voices draw the sun)
(prabhujee)
reverse
I watch the moon in
rewind
a star cast over our heads and houses
all calls for heat and
light
(and voices draw the sun)
(and voices draw the sun)
(and voices draw the sun)
(prabhujee)
Sunday, July 3, 2011
The 'Catherine'
is despair; the drop of a sullen
mouth, the ill-fitting suit you have to
wear
"I took one for the team," you laugh, but there's
a hard, barbed truth in
there because
The 'Catherine'
is unfair; the requisite of a shunned
girl, the ill-sitting proof of her
fear.
mouth, the ill-fitting suit you have to
wear
"I took one for the team," you laugh, but there's
a hard, barbed truth in
there because
The 'Catherine'
is unfair; the requisite of a shunned
girl, the ill-sitting proof of her
fear.
At the 21st
a photo pops up of
Grandpa
and it is obscene with his
madness
I want to howl
'TAKE IT OFF'
'TURN IT OFF'
'THIS IS TOO MUCH'
but I don't
and it's gone
Grandpa
and it is obscene with his
madness
I want to howl
'TAKE IT OFF'
'TURN IT OFF'
'THIS IS TOO MUCH'
but I don't
and it's gone
Saturday, July 2, 2011
When She was a Man
she ran on other fuels.
Scanned horizons with another set of
eyes, prized another set of tools;
the boot, the sword.
Her action was as good as her word and
when she was a man she sang a darker
song, a long one, mournful and strong and
she stretched her nerves to the length of her stride.
Split the width of her fear with pride
and plain pursuit,
her sword, her boot
set firmly, yet fleetingly,
at the foot of a hill,
at the side of a sea,
at the edge of a cliff,
at the root of a tree.
Scanned horizons with another set of
eyes, prized another set of tools;
the boot, the sword.
Her action was as good as her word and
when she was a man she sang a darker
song, a long one, mournful and strong and
she stretched her nerves to the length of her stride.
Split the width of her fear with pride
and plain pursuit,
her sword, her boot
set firmly, yet fleetingly,
at the foot of a hill,
at the side of a sea,
at the edge of a cliff,
at the root of a tree.
Cool, Glassy, Dolly-girl
who smells like lollies and
looks like lies
black hair coiled about a China
face, dazed disdain ingrained
in her brow
flushes of brushed-on rose at
each cheek, lips of split
plumb part reluctantly to tell you
the tedious details
($58 left on your layby)
looks like lies
black hair coiled about a China
face, dazed disdain ingrained
in her brow
flushes of brushed-on rose at
each cheek, lips of split
plumb part reluctantly to tell you
the tedious details
($58 left on your layby)
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Atlantic
He is the Sea.
No questions between.
No fury mistaken.
No contamination of state. Of intention.
All pure contemplation.
All father.
All invention.
He is the Sea.
No fear of rejection.
No knowledge withheld.
All death, resurrection, is welcomed. Is done.
He is the Sea.
Is father.
Is son.
No questions between.
No fury mistaken.
No contamination of state. Of intention.
All pure contemplation.
All father.
All invention.
He is the Sea.
No fear of rejection.
No knowledge withheld.
All death, resurrection, is welcomed. Is done.
He is the Sea.
Is father.
Is son.
Some Question
Small Woman
puts her shallow footprints
in the shale-coloured sand - wind
winds her long long strands
in its fingers - dark sky
blue beyond grey
as it hinges on twilight - the
lingering sunlight as cold
as a clay tomb.
The Minute
has such room for
change - transformation - sirens
signalling each station of its
cross into night - its
shift - the cold salty lifting of
stars - of the moon
all
held
in the
hands
of some
question.
puts her shallow footprints
in the shale-coloured sand - wind
winds her long long strands
in its fingers - dark sky
blue beyond grey
as it hinges on twilight - the
lingering sunlight as cold
as a clay tomb.
The Minute
has such room for
change - transformation - sirens
signalling each station of its
cross into night - its
shift - the cold salty lifting of
stars - of the moon
all
held
in the
hands
of some
question.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
The Boy
The boy masked his face.
Pasted it black with a stroke, stroke,
the tack of the polish,
the smack of the paintbrush,
all joy, all grim, all primal and strange.
The boy wound a wire.
Wound it around and around his neck,
found the feel pleasing,
unexpectedly thrilling,
his reflection a thing to unnerve and admire.
The boy took the stair.
Trembled to think of the party ahead,
his heart in his throat and
his throat in his head,
a dreadful step taken - all - up - in the - air -
Pasted it black with a stroke, stroke,
the tack of the polish,
the smack of the paintbrush,
all joy, all grim, all primal and strange.
The boy wound a wire.
Wound it around and around his neck,
found the feel pleasing,
unexpectedly thrilling,
his reflection a thing to unnerve and admire.
The boy took the stair.
Trembled to think of the party ahead,
his heart in his throat and
his throat in his head,
a dreadful step taken - all - up - in the - air -
After
Drunk beyond
speech
we rolled into
sleep
folded like jumpers
all arms and
torsos
tangled the
sheets
with the blind, mashing
force of our
wash, our
dry, the
dark drunken sleep
of my darling
and I.
speech
we rolled into
sleep
folded like jumpers
all arms and
torsos
tangled the
sheets
with the blind, mashing
force of our
wash, our
dry, the
dark drunken sleep
of my darling
and I.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Mooncroon
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In the Afternoon
I drift in the warm waft of the gardens, between
the sweet sting of things that have been. Tempted
by theft to thieve the things left but I leave
them. They belong here. And I've already stayed too
long here.
the sweet sting of things that have been. Tempted
by theft to thieve the things left but I leave
them. They belong here. And I've already stayed too
long here.
He was Sleepwalking
he was sleepwalking
called to a
red moon
thrown from the throne
of thought
all impulse
all want
called to a
red moon
thrown from the throne
of thought
all impulse
all want
Monday, May 30, 2011
The first thing I did when I got home from work was
get into the shower. It was all I could think about while I was in the shop. Shower. I needed to be clean. I needed to wash the fear and rage and hate away. I pulled my hair out of its tight, oily ponytail, felt my follicles swoon at the release. Ran the water, and as it warmed, stripped off my clothes like they were a part of the conflict, like the were vestments of that disgusting ceremony. Clean! I wanted to be clean. I wanted that woman's words to be washed out of my mind, I wanted the water to exorcise them from me like tiny demons and baptise my new, fresh, unblemished soul with a willingness to love humanity again! How I hated humanity that morning. How I hated its every low, selfish, mean, uncompromising manifestation. How I hated myself. Water. I needed water.
Friday, May 27, 2011
The Camping-Store Shaman
came and
cleared the air of
Her
at first
we'd laughed him
off
but soon
we asked him up the
stairs
and soon
as he went up he
stood
exactly where
Her bed had
been
I don't
believe in all that
stuff
but that's
the weirdest thing I've
seen
cleared the air of
Her
at first
we'd laughed him
off
but soon
we asked him up the
stairs
and soon
as he went up he
stood
exactly where
Her bed had
been
I don't
believe in all that
stuff
but that's
the weirdest thing I've
seen
In the Garden
What was
that? Moving
in the
garden? As you
spoke so
earnestly? Between the
slow blinks born of
a few drinks with our
fellow, here, and
me?
I'm sure
I saw
the
Truth?
Although, no.
No.
I know
it couldn't be.
that? Moving
in the
garden? As you
spoke so
earnestly? Between the
slow blinks born of
a few drinks with our
fellow, here, and
me?
I'm sure
I saw
the
Truth?
Although, no.
No.
I know
it couldn't be.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Grandstanding
AND THEN my father said well no I'm not going to pay that much for so little HE ALWAYS said exactly what he thought I'VE DEFINITELY inherited that from him NOTHING STOPS me from going out if I want to YOU KNOW the Balwyn shops are absolute rubbish these days WHEN I was growing up in Kew I used to ride my bike to Balwyn and I knew all the good shops for real good quality clothing you know GOOD QUALITY and I was quite good at styling myself you know I'VE ALWAYS had a good eye for these things it sort of runs in my family MY DAUGHTER is the same and my granddaughter too I GAVE my granddaughter $100 for her birthday and for me $100 wouldn't go very far but she was clever SHE KNEW how to stretch that $100 and get some really nice little inexpensive accessories and
he is joining the army
she tells me with the deepest
brown eyes
and something stiffens inside
my chest
something jars and will not
move
and I see him somewhere
dark eyes set on the dawn
brown eyes
and something stiffens inside
my chest
something jars and will not
move
and I see him somewhere
dark eyes set on the dawn
The Skivvies
Every year I had to
acclimatise
and every year I had to get used to
being slightly
strangled.
The first days of winter
even cold autumn days
induced a gentle
retching
as I swallowed inside my fetching
skivvies.
Soon
though
I was used to them so
I wore them
the season
through.
acclimatise
and every year I had to get used to
being slightly
strangled.
The first days of winter
even cold autumn days
induced a gentle
retching
as I swallowed inside my fetching
skivvies.
Soon
though
I was used to them so
I wore them
the season
through.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
See My Hands
See my hands age, see them
pucker, pinch, decay
shedding endless cells with every
dying day, heading to the
heart of death like
April marching to May
See my hands thin, see their
skin wrap a little looser round the
bone, they're being worn in
you see, my hands
are not my own
pucker, pinch, decay
shedding endless cells with every
dying day, heading to the
heart of death like
April marching to May
See my hands thin, see their
skin wrap a little looser round the
bone, they're being worn in
you see, my hands
are not my own
Monday, May 2, 2011
Sunday, May 1, 2011
I catch
the eyes lighting up like little
windows winking to the
night, spanning the natural
divide, sharing some electric secret
with the wind
(luminous laughter shuffles the stars
presses the printer
buttons)
windows winking to the
night, spanning the natural
divide, sharing some electric secret
with the wind
(luminous laughter shuffles the stars
presses the printer
buttons)
Monday, April 25, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
View from the Train (of a Cold Night)
boo blue houses
hoot like little owls as we
swoop through their
streets
breathing little foggy breaths and
bleating little lamb bleats while the
cold heaps up around
them
I would wave
if I was little
I would wave
and smile
but now
the black-clad passengers on my carriage
would flap their papers
and frown
hoot like little owls as we
swoop through their
streets
breathing little foggy breaths and
bleating little lamb bleats while the
cold heaps up around
them
I would wave
if I was little
I would wave
and smile
but now
the black-clad passengers on my carriage
would flap their papers
and frown
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Donnie #2
We brought him pencils and paper and books
placed them with reverence inside his old briefcase
(the one mum said smelt like the city)
delivered them to him in the hope of prompting
watched those bony, once-dexterous fingers
feel through the contents like a learning child
take a texta
and draw a terrifying picture
of the Queen Mother
with a moustache
placed them with reverence inside his old briefcase
(the one mum said smelt like the city)
delivered them to him in the hope of prompting
watched those bony, once-dexterous fingers
feel through the contents like a learning child
take a texta
and draw a terrifying picture
of the Queen Mother
with a moustache
Donnie
We referred to our memory of you like an abstract
dictionary
a vapourous tome floating in the backs of our
brains
text mixed with pictures
we flicked through the fixtures of your former
voice
your former
face
your former
thoughts
and ways of expressing
them
this was our way of guessing what you
wanted
this was our way of preparing for your
death
dictionary
a vapourous tome floating in the backs of our
brains
text mixed with pictures
we flicked through the fixtures of your former
voice
your former
face
your former
thoughts
and ways of expressing
them
this was our way of guessing what you
wanted
this was our way of preparing for your
death
I move through
cloaked in the long blue cloak my
mumma gave me last
November
and now those Summer embers have come to choke on
Autumn
I am automatically open to being
closed.
mumma gave me last
November
and now those Summer embers have come to choke on
Autumn
I am automatically open to being
closed.
My Niece Sleeps
my niece sleeps
tangled in hair and
dreams
imp spirit bottled in a
cream baby
cheeks flushed with
heat
sweet sweat-matted head paused mid-
motion
she seems moored mid some strange
ocean
she seems suspended in some kind of there-less
air
some kind of somewhere
nowhere
tangled in hair and
dreams
imp spirit bottled in a
cream baby
cheeks flushed with
heat
sweet sweat-matted head paused mid-
motion
she seems moored mid some strange
ocean
she seems suspended in some kind of there-less
air
some kind of somewhere
nowhere
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Gareth
Pulled into the dark smoke of his voice, his
stories, the pinched flicker of his beautiful
battered cheek, sometimes the voice drags,
sometimes it clanks, sometimes it's hard to hear
it speak, sometimes it swims so smoothly to the
surface of the room, gliding, angelic, through
the ears and the heads up to the roof where it
swoops, circles, hovers like breath, then descends
so slowly, softly, deathly still, a smokey trill
in a burning bush, then the air clears, the wood
creaks, and you are felled with one big push.
stories, the pinched flicker of his beautiful
battered cheek, sometimes the voice drags,
sometimes it clanks, sometimes it's hard to hear
it speak, sometimes it swims so smoothly to the
surface of the room, gliding, angelic, through
the ears and the heads up to the roof where it
swoops, circles, hovers like breath, then descends
so slowly, softly, deathly still, a smokey trill
in a burning bush, then the air clears, the wood
creaks, and you are felled with one big push.
I Can Smell That Dawn
I can smell that dawn
hear it yawning through the trees as though the
morning broke it from a deep deep sleep, woke it
from a sweet sweet fleeting memory, a far retreat
into some fantasy, a place that won't come back
I can feel that lack
I can feel that mourn
just as clearly as I hear that wake and smell that dawn
hear it yawning through the trees as though the
morning broke it from a deep deep sleep, woke it
from a sweet sweet fleeting memory, a far retreat
into some fantasy, a place that won't come back
I can feel that lack
I can feel that mourn
just as clearly as I hear that wake and smell that dawn
Sam
Sam Shepard was so
beautiful!
we sigh
That photo of him biting
her arm!
His beautiful face!
The tragic glow of his wise young-man's
eyes!
The cut of his jaw!
His golden hair! (at least it
looks like it might be golden in these black and
whites)
Oh Sam!
we sigh
He's so sharp and steely now
though
she says
The last photo I saw of him
He looked like a dark
farmer
Staring into a distant
oblivion
beautiful!
we sigh
That photo of him biting
her arm!
His beautiful face!
The tragic glow of his wise young-man's
eyes!
The cut of his jaw!
His golden hair! (at least it
looks like it might be golden in these black and
whites)
Oh Sam!
we sigh
He's so sharp and steely now
though
she says
The last photo I saw of him
He looked like a dark
farmer
Staring into a distant
oblivion
Sunday, April 3, 2011
When We Reconnected
when we reconnected the earth was growing
cold, the
chill was settling in your
hair, there
were regular
rainstorms, everywhere
was
wet, the
streetlights that had streamed with hot regret were fogged into a
freeze, the
breezes were slap-sharp harpies with stinging hands and
yet, the
mornings we woke
together, the
mornings we opened our eyes to the light
together, the
weather was warm
and bright
cold, the
chill was settling in your
hair, there
were regular
rainstorms, everywhere
was
wet, the
streetlights that had streamed with hot regret were fogged into a
freeze, the
breezes were slap-sharp harpies with stinging hands and
yet, the
mornings we woke
together, the
mornings we opened our eyes to the light
together, the
weather was warm
and bright
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Joan
The smoke takes her like a man never
could, circles
round her body, fills
her lungs, sucks,
her ears, plugs
her nose, burning
wood in every
entrance, every
hole, every
pore, burning
wood to take her where she's never
been before.
could, circles
round her body, fills
her lungs, sucks,
her ears, plugs
her nose, burning
wood in every
entrance, every
hole, every
pore, burning
wood to take her where she's never
been before.
Mortal Jewels
I wore the wounds like mortal
jewels, they hung in solemn
weights, clung like grave
suspicions, wrung my body
dry, sung my final
dirge with sorry
whispers of
goodbye
jewels, they hung in solemn
weights, clung like grave
suspicions, wrung my body
dry, sung my final
dirge with sorry
whispers of
goodbye
Warm Women's Perfumes
warm women's perfumes carry
coolly on the cold air, the
smell of their clothes, the
smell of their hair, barely
fixed to their bodies, barely
fixed anywhere, oh the
warm women's perfumes carry
coolly on the air
coolly on the cold air, the
smell of their clothes, the
smell of their hair, barely
fixed to their bodies, barely
fixed anywhere, oh the
warm women's perfumes carry
coolly on the air
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
***
M's sister had been buried beneath a great rock near the cemetery, a tiny baby girl in a gem-encrusted box made by their father. And now M's ninety-year-old body, burned, turned to ashes and poured into an urn fashioned by his grandson, was set to be lain by that box. A procession of long-limbed boys and thick-fingered men moved through the gardens, made its way bewitchingly through the headstones, each figure bound to the other by a white rope. The leader of this procession, M's nephew and the eldest of the family, held M's clay vessel majestically aloft in his be-ringed artisan's hands, a wild spark in his green eyes, emeralds set in a silver mask.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Aftermath
Naked
drunk
and home.
Do I
smell like all
the girls
I danced with?
Have the boys
left all their
smiles
on me?
I danced tonight.
I did.
And now I'm
naked
drunk
and home.
drunk
and home.
Do I
smell like all
the girls
I danced with?
Have the boys
left all their
smiles
on me?
I danced tonight.
I did.
And now I'm
naked
drunk
and home.
Monday, March 14, 2011
For God's Sake
hold her by the ghost of her waist
dance once more before dawn
see love fill the frame of her face
cry goodbye at the horn
dance once more before dawn
see love fill the frame of her face
cry goodbye at the horn
We Are Going Out Today
We are aimed at the city.
We are freshly washed and woken.
We are combed and clipped.
We are shirted, skirted, suited.
We are waxed and slicked.
We are riding machines today.
We are sealed in travelling containers.
We are pleasant, patient, polite.
We are watching the world through windows.
We are keeping our knees to ourselves.
We are keeping an eye on the stops.
We are smiling at jumpered children.
We are passing the movement of morning.
We are going out today.
We are aimed at the city.
We are freshly washed and woken.
We are combed and clipped.
We are shirted, skirted, suited.
We are waxed and slicked.
We are riding machines today.
We are sealed in travelling containers.
We are pleasant, patient, polite.
We are watching the world through windows.
We are keeping our knees to ourselves.
We are keeping an eye on the stops.
We are smiling at jumpered children.
We are passing the movement of morning.
We are going out today.
We are aimed at the city.
Williamstown Beach Without My Bathers
converts me into a billowing
wader
clothes
hoiked
shorts knotted into culottes
shirt rolled above the
shoulders
water
warm and clear.
I never quite planned on coming here
but here I am
a lonely daughter
caught out
(towell-less)
sand removal not totally thought out
(tote bag a mess)
but who gives a shit.
I am here
in the water
and that is it.
wader
clothes
hoiked
shorts knotted into culottes
shirt rolled above the
shoulders
water
warm and clear.
I never quite planned on coming here
but here I am
a lonely daughter
caught out
(towell-less)
sand removal not totally thought out
(tote bag a mess)
but who gives a shit.
I am here
in the water
and that is it.
A Pointed Steaking of a Girl
with waves of hair and blaring
eyes tries on
an embroidered blouse,
her boyfriend permitted to
peak through the curtain,
give an honest but gentle opinion,
the girl guides his answers with forceful questions,
his answers give way to her
prompts.
eyes tries on
an embroidered blouse,
her boyfriend permitted to
peak through the curtain,
give an honest but gentle opinion,
the girl guides his answers with forceful questions,
his answers give way to her
prompts.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Arcade
I wanted the old men who ran the arcade to be heartwarming gentlemen. I wanted them to be ambassadors of another, better time. I waited for them to greet me gracefully in the morning, to tip their hats and nod their heads to me in the evening, to follow these actions with an elegantly deferential word, a salute to the old-world duty of gallant man to eminent woman. In three years of coexisting in that arcade, three years of hopefully entering and exiting that building, expectant smile on, head ready to nod warmly in response to a sweet phrase, a charming word, a kind smile, I never received so much as a glance from the old men who ran the arcade.
Extract
How quickly our everyday realms sink into the mythic quicksand of memory. We are here. We were there. How quickly the forms of our ordinary mornings shift into twilight apparitions, pointing to the dark pool of night, signalling the gentle onset of death. Slowly, wittingly or not, we are undergoing a subtle drowning, a silent sinking into oblivion.
I would like to write a story for you.
We have shared so many stories, but like our time together, they have passed into the dream realm. I recall parts of them, though all recollections are dusted with a golden, obscuring vapour. I remember when you told me about your mother and your sisters. As you spoke, the tragedy seemed to unfold from the sky. The shop became a holy bowl of light, overwhelming as music, fragile as a soap bubble. You grew. Your brown eyes glowed like back-lit amber, your hair streamed in godlike coils of ancient rope. You spoke death with the assuring breath of an archangel, sword flaming against the dark. I truly loved you that day. You reminded me that only people matter. You reminded me to live with love.
I would like to write a story for you.
We have shared so many stories, but like our time together, they have passed into the dream realm. I recall parts of them, though all recollections are dusted with a golden, obscuring vapour. I remember when you told me about your mother and your sisters. As you spoke, the tragedy seemed to unfold from the sky. The shop became a holy bowl of light, overwhelming as music, fragile as a soap bubble. You grew. Your brown eyes glowed like back-lit amber, your hair streamed in godlike coils of ancient rope. You spoke death with the assuring breath of an archangel, sword flaming against the dark. I truly loved you that day. You reminded me that only people matter. You reminded me to live with love.
Something to Aim For
I drink black coffee and I've
shaved my head.
I don't have sugar and I
talk about the dead just as plainly as I talk about
the living.
I'm done with giving everything
a coat of veneer.
I am now plain.
I am now clear.
shaved my head.
I don't have sugar and I
talk about the dead just as plainly as I talk about
the living.
I'm done with giving everything
a coat of veneer.
I am now plain.
I am now clear.
Peter
Beard and bone
cut like a knife
sculpted in stone
carrying life like a baby bird.
The face of good
shaped by pain
draws his ink
from the human stain.
cut like a knife
sculpted in stone
carrying life like a baby bird.
The face of good
shaped by pain
draws his ink
from the human stain.
Karina
The woman, wan
and waxy as a white
candle
bears her morning body
through the wooden
rooms
Binding the blinds
with rope
Winding the windows
open
and waxy as a white
candle
bears her morning body
through the wooden
rooms
Binding the blinds
with rope
Winding the windows
open
Catherine
The old woman was round.
"You could have drawn her with a compass," a neighbour had once remarked.
Her body was round. Her face was round. Her hands and mouth and eyes were round, though a compass could never have captured the sharp glint that lit them.
"I remember her scent more than anything," another had said. "Eau de Cologne. It reamed off of her. The entire house fumed with it, the kitchen, the curtains, the couches. She must have gone through gallons of the stuff before she died."
She had died naturally, if you can call the slow shutting down of the liver over a lifetime of heavy drinking a natural death.
"She was a strong old thing for someone with so many weaknesses," her half-nephew mused, "the grog mastered her for some fifty years. That's a long time to be mastered by anything."
"You could have drawn her with a compass," a neighbour had once remarked.
Her body was round. Her face was round. Her hands and mouth and eyes were round, though a compass could never have captured the sharp glint that lit them.
"I remember her scent more than anything," another had said. "Eau de Cologne. It reamed off of her. The entire house fumed with it, the kitchen, the curtains, the couches. She must have gone through gallons of the stuff before she died."
She had died naturally, if you can call the slow shutting down of the liver over a lifetime of heavy drinking a natural death.
"She was a strong old thing for someone with so many weaknesses," her half-nephew mused, "the grog mastered her for some fifty years. That's a long time to be mastered by anything."
Saturday, February 5, 2011
It's Not George Clooney
leaning on the pole outside
the train windows
It's just a poster of him
telling us to drink
Nespressos
But what no one knows
is that I know his choice of coffee is
VERY UNETHICAL.
the train windows
It's just a poster of him
telling us to drink
Nespressos
But what no one knows
is that I know his choice of coffee is
VERY UNETHICAL.
Dead Animals Curl
their heads by their broken
bodies
blood-sodden oddities
corrected by death
beyond calls
beyond bounding
beyond flight
beyond breath
dogs in boxes
rats in barrels
mice in buckets
birds on steps
bodies
blood-sodden oddities
corrected by death
beyond calls
beyond bounding
beyond flight
beyond breath
dogs in boxes
rats in barrels
mice in buckets
birds on steps
Friday, January 7, 2011
Drunk Near St. Pat's, 1am
God should not be forbidding
God should gleam with all the dreamlike
welcome one can muster
God should not be grim and grey
with skewers piercing through the day
and carving up the night
God should be all light and lustre
warmth and softness and give
God should not be made to live with roses
fenced with knifelike spikes
God should be a wild, growing garden
calling you to smell and touch and lie.
Who set God in this cement?
Who killed him in his sleep?
I’ll reach through the tomb walls
and pick a rose to keep
in memory of
him.
God should gleam with all the dreamlike
welcome one can muster
God should not be grim and grey
with skewers piercing through the day
and carving up the night
God should be all light and lustre
warmth and softness and give
God should not be made to live with roses
fenced with knifelike spikes
God should be a wild, growing garden
calling you to smell and touch and lie.
Who set God in this cement?
Who killed him in his sleep?
I’ll reach through the tomb walls
and pick a rose to keep
in memory of
him.
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